another test..

march 28, 2011, two days after i took a pregnancy test.. still i don't have my period.. feeling restless and dizzy sometimes i thought it's just my period coming.. but confusion all over me so i decided to buy another brand of pregnancy kit and tested again.. i waited again a few minutes and result was still negative so i left it in the room and i had a dinner.. i thought maybe i'm not really pregnant it's just that it was really delayed this month..

after an hour or two i checked the kit again, i was shocked because i saw a two line.. a faint line on the test band so it really bothers me.. i searched on the net what's the explanation for this or if its really happens..

the explanation was a faint color band in the test area of a pregnancy test indicates, in most circumstances, a positive result for pregnancy. however, a faint line appearing after the designated reaction time of the test may be an "evaporation line"..

is it really positive or it's just an evaporation line??

me? pregnant???

it was march 25, 2011, i'm one day delayed.. asking me it's too soon to assume that i'm pregnant? i have this feeling that i am because ever since i have this kind of feeling it was always right but then again i thought maybe because i'm stress that's why my period was delayed .. i started the day waking up early because we (daddy, adam and haille) are going to go for jogging, for a change since i decided to loosen some weight.. :)

the day was fine, no signs of period coming, no headaches but a little pain in the lower back.. our friends came over the house and we have some mini "drinking session".. after that i told daddy to go to the drugstore to buy a pregnancy kit.. so we bought a kit and as soon we reached the house i tested it.. i'm nervous and super excited for the result.. after a minute or two i looked at the result and it's only one line meaning it was negative.. i was quite disappointed because i was expecting it to be positive, i was never wrong with my intuition about my pregnancy since i always record my periods correctly.. so when daddy asked me what is it, i was teary eyed told him "hindi eh" while shaking my head..

" Just Talking" Is a key to Understanding

excerpt from my favorite book " love and respect"..

the importance of setting aside time to talk to your wife is not an option, this is a must!!! talking is when women report to build rapport. this may sound like "small talk" to you. you may or may not be ready for it at all times, particularly after getting home from a hard day at work, but take time to talk to her if at all possible. understand the importance she puts on sharing her report and having you share yours. you don't have to give every detail of the day. try, however, to go over a few highlights, a certain happening, something that will make her feel loved because she will be building rapport with the most important person in her life.

remember, too that wives love to talk to release their emotions. because a woman is an integrated personality, she is like a teakettle- she collects all the things that have happened to her over the day, and there is a build up. she needs to release some of these feelings, and it really can't wait until tomorrow or the next day. men are compartmentalized, you can stuff things away and not have to talk about them; you don't have pressure buliding inside the way your wife does. when you let her share her small talk and give her a chance to "let off steam", she will feel good. she will feel connected to you. women also need to talk to realize their feelings. men usually know what they are feeling, and they will talk about it if if they think it is necessary. women, on the other hand, can be feeling a lot of things but now know exactly what they are. as they begin to talk about what happened through the day, they can work back on the problem that they can't seem to put their finger on. that's why a wife sometimes says, "can we talk?". when asked, "why?" she doesn't really know- she just had a bad day and, just need to talk. as a husband you must realize your wife needs to process her feelings- to realize exactly how she is feeling. as she talks to you it clarifies things to her; then she feels better and she feels understood...

twist and turn..

Hay, I thought it was easy being a mother .. that's the idea I have in mind when I first knew that I was pregnant.. I was really excited knowing that I can bear a child inside of me, of course afraid too coz there's a lot of changes to come into my life, " the child is not a child anymore" .



Until my child came into this world, first time I saw her I cried because at last I was able to see her and held her in my arms, she was the very thing to me that time.. I want to give her everything, I want to be ther on her monthly birthdays as we celebrate it.. When she reaches the age of one year old she is showing a lot of things that makes us happy and sometimes annoyed us especially me..



I'm not the only one who takes care of her, there's my mom to help me especially when she's showing tantrums, I really hate that, I don't want her when she's crying or should I say she's screaming!!! Of course mama to the rescue.. Maybe that is the reason why Haille is lola's girl because I could not stand her when she's like that..



Until now Im still struggling when she's being a brat, sometimes I tend to spank her, yes, I sometimes did.. " tao lang naman po ako, nauubos din ang pasensya".. Siguro nga yun dapat ang matutunan ng bawat ina at magiging ina, ang magkaroon ng mahhhhhhhhaaaaaabang pasensya...